Check this out...... How God weaves 3 scenarios together beautifully...........
Scenario #1: My publisher "over-nighted" 1 copy of my book for my final approval on Monday. I waited every day this week. It never came. Today is Friday, January 11, 2013.
Scenario #2: Today someone asked me how long it took me to write my book. I explained that it was just a collection of stories I had written over many years, the first of which was written in 1991, following the death of my daughter.
Scenario #3: Today, my baby girl would be turning 22. I thought about her a million times today. And even though I know it was all "in my head," I am pretty sure my arms ached, all day. As I was driving home, I had complete silence. No music or radio. No phone conversations. I just cried. It does not matter how many years go by. The ache feels EXACTLY. THE. SAME. WAY. No one understands. That's what I kept thinking to myself all the way home. No one gets it. Not my children. Not my friends. Not my family. Only other mothers who have lost a child. And nothing helps. Nothing. (Besides knowing I will see her again, that is).
So I get to my front door, and a package awaits me. My book. My book with the collection of stories, the first of which was written after the death of my daughter on January 11, 1991. Today is her birthday. She would be 22. The book arrived for her birthday. The book arrived for her birthday!!!! God knows my heart!! It's GOD's "overnight express!" HE wanted it to arrive ON HER BIRTHDAY, because HE longs to comfort me in my sorrow!!! He knows our hearts so well. My GOD, I wish people would just CHOOSE to see Him.......... How He works so beautifully and intimately and personally and lovingly FOR us. He LOVES US!!! And He knows when we hurt!! And He sends people our way to comfort us. He does!!!
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